And I Was Lost Again

It's monsoon again, and i love everything about this weather. Dark clouds, lightening, heavy rain, rainbow, the bright green color of nature. For me monsoon means Romance. I'm a girl who don't have a boyfriend and it's not like i'm dying to have one. But whenever this season is around i feel like i'hv been left lonely by Him[imaginary. He who do exist, but in my mind]. Just like right now i'm sitting near my window and thinking about Him, i found myself doing the same last year too. Though my He does not exist still i never got a feeling that He loves me. It's always like He left me. Whenever i think of Him, my skin is numb and the rain drops do not touch me. I just keep staring at my cell phone, waiting for a call, a message that will make me smile in my mind. I imagine myself with Him drenched in rain, walking on a beach. I can feel the warmth when He will hold my hand. 

I don't know when this feeling will fade away but i think it will stay unless i find the REAL HIM:)